Liquorice

So I seem to have this problem since the funeral. I lack ambition. I think this is a kind of depression but I'm pretty happy. I just don't feel like revisiting that day. Too many emotions. I have another post where I am just going on and on about that day and it's taking so much longer than I'd like. The same thing happened with a project I started for a client. I began the project right before I heard about Led and then I went on and didn't do the project for about 3 weeks. She has been really understanding, she's a Christian so I think that had something to do with it. I finally decided that I wanted to get the project done so I did it, then sent it out the next day. The same day I went to do an inspection on a property that we put an offer on today. I've got a very important cake due this weekend and my son's third birthday party next weekend. It's all been pretty fun but I think it's overwhelming subconsciously.

I've got prayer tomorrow night and then group right after. Maybe seeing people and praying will help some. I've been praying on my own and even dared to read straight from the book on my own so I'm cool with Jeezy but I still don't feel like I am where I need to be quite yet. I'll pick up soon and treat the blog like I did the pocket tissue holders I made for the client and when I complete that post, I'll be relieved and ready to continue. It's just getting over that hurdle.

I've been reading a lot of Vice.com. It's a pretty depressing out there. Great journalism with very graphic war stories. Some weird stories sometimes as well but I really like the way they cover the things going on around the world.

I've also been listening to female rappers non-stop. Specifically Azealia Banks. She's kind of vulgar but she has really great beats and they rhyming is pretty good. She's got great flow. I kind of just feel like dancing which I hadn't done since last September I believe. Her style is very early 90's which is incredibly nostalgic for me. Also her samples are simple and sound like some of the early Chicago House.

I think this is depression but I've got nothing to be sad about.

I'm also on germaphobe mode, Rick, Erika and my mom had stomach bugs but the boy and I are healthy and not sick so thank Jesus for hand washing, lot's of soap and bleach wipes. Also, I'm 100% on faith that we won't get sick. This is truly a miracle from God. Just have a strange peace about the whole things... but I'm still drinking my Kombucha too so I'm sure that's helping... but God made Kombucha so there.


Listening to Azealia Banks "Liquorice" on loop via youtube.

http://youtu.be/ZlWRhnYgWcc