In the Arms of sleep

Some of the most beautiful music can draw you in by just a few notes. I feel the same way about the most recognizable notes. I can usually figure out what song is on 5 seconds in. Maybe less. This is also how I feel most relationships are. I can tell in 1 minute if I will like you or if I have a bunch of red flags. I can read your demeanor, your heart and sometimes see walls that are up. I've never been wrong when it comes to red flags. I've been stupid and ignored them but never wrong. I'm mentioning this because you can't tell who a person is on social media. Generally I'm pretty nice but I can be a real jerk and usually lack tact. ALL THE TIME. I'm offensive without knowing it and it can't be stopped. I like this experiment. I do feel like all of this writing and blogging and talking about blogging and thinking and listening to music is possibly getting me a little bit more moody than usual but maybe it's my caffeine intake mixed with the heat and the stresses of life.

I didn't interview anyone because it was a hellish day. Kind of like that one step #4. Just needed to cook, clean and go to bible study to stay sane. Tomorrow I will get back to it. I think I want to make that a goal. Keep the weekends as simple as possible when it comes to the blog and meet up and speak with people during the week. My weekends are booked the entire summer so it would seem like this would be the only way I could live and enjoy my life with the people I love. Then back to work Monday - Friday.

I've been kind of down and angry all day. Thank you to those of you who are keeping up with the blog. It's been weird to write about myself these past few days but it's also been incredibly cathartic. So thank you. And thank you for the people that reached out to me in support and gave encouragement.

Apparently, this is a new phase of life for me.


Listening to The Smashing Pumpkins, Album: Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness: "In the Arms of Sleep"